mixed feelings now.

you see, i was rather elated, cause i finally talked things out with Ryan after keeping it bottled inside me for so long. it feels great to thrash things out with him and settle everything in a lovely manner. and we're still going strong(:

and then, my mood got kinda bad after viewing certain blogs.

you see, i dont want this matter to blow up.

i already told you i wont be free on wed/fri.
i already told you i've got to celebrate my dance stuff on wednesday.
i already told you i've got a streaming talk to attend on friday.
i already dropped you a testimonial on friendster telling you to meet up. [perhaps you didnt notice?]
you already said that you can understand that i spend more time with him than you.
and its only been a week since we havent meet? why the big deal? as in, no offense, but we dont meet every single week even before i was with Ryan, do we?

okay, lets say yes, i did not spend as much time as i used to with you after Ryan and me got together, but if you were unhappy with it, you could have just tell me nicely instead of writing such hurtful remarks isnt it?

"to think you labelled me as your good friend"
whats this supposed to mean?

okay, so now tell me, how would you feel if i was the one writing those comments instead?

and define "took for granted" please, cos i did ask you out in friendster.

im not pissed. im confused, at what were you thinking when you wrote all these in your blog.
and perhaps, at the same time, disappointed. that you would think such of me.

whatever it is, contact me alright.

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okay, so apart from that, my day today was useful.
in a sense that i studied for practically the whole day.

i woke up at 10am and foolishly waited for my chinese tutor to come only at 11am-.-
damn, wasted half an hour of sleep!
yea, had chinese tuition that sucked kinda bad, then immediately after it ended, took a bath, changed, packed my bag and cabbed down to hougang mall's macs for group study with jiale, freddy, malcolm and dwayne, and later on, garey.

studied from 3pm until 10pm.
yea, 7 hours, minus 1hour of talking/eating/etc, 6hours of history+abit of math and +abit of science.
kinda crazy cos after i reach home and bathe, i started doing my history once again.

yea, im prepared to ton tonight, me and jiale gotta do the sickening history presentation. plus i wanna carry on studying. i dont have alot of time.

i need/want/have/wish/pray/____[insert word here] that i get in streams like 3A1 and 3A4. [double science]
i cant let my history and geog down ok!

yea, so as you can tell, im really busy now.
any dates whatsoever, wait till after exams, around mid-may alright (:
meanwhile, im gonna study like siao.
i can swear that i have never studied this hard before, in my entire life. [okay, i know thats bad.]
and Ryan Yeoh, if you do read this, I WANT YOU TO START STUDYING ALSO OKOKOK!!! *screams*
;D

okay, gotta attend to my PW presentation for tmr alr.
cris jasmine and weirou, you 3 idiots!!! *pulls hair*
[haha, jkjk]


okay, its close to 3am and baby just fell asleep i guess.
*gives a goodnight kiss on his forehead =x heh!*

so, till then, goodnight and have a nice day.