alright, so my days have been terribly, been crying since Saturday.
darn ):
i hate it.
screw the worldddddddddddddddddddddd.
):

anw, lets talk bout my days instead.

the saddest thing that happened recently was that i've been on very bad terms with baby since friday, until now. ): this sucks.

so saturday i cried to sleep. this sucks even more.
the feeling of sleeping with wet pillows are disgusting.

so anw, msged angie in the middle of the night and asked her out.
so went out with angie on sunday.

initially, before the dispute baby and i had, i was supposed to meet him on sunday. you see, once again, this sucks.
so yea. met angie at ard 4pm at cityhall.
walked to suntec and caught "200 pounds beauty" or smth like that. touching show, i cried like tapwater. not bad. pretty funny show too. go catch it ok!
took neos, had sumptous dinner, got my contacts and strawberry sweetheart cake from breadtalk then home.

actually i wanted to share my strawberry sweetheart with baby. D';
i always eat alot when my mood is bad. like supar.
so yea. yes my dinner cost twice as much as angie.

and all angie said today was that i look like a ghost with my super heavy eyebags and supar dark eye circles. plus i guess i really look gloomy. THIS SUCKS ONCE AGAIN.


so i started writing a letter for him since 1am and only finished at 3am.
[p.s-i've got dance the following morning]
yea, couldnt sleep at all.

woke up early in the morning feeling very bad. my eyes were kinda sore.
forced my contacts in. yea.

reached sch, prepared and went hall for last rehearsal. i sucked like shit. it was probably my worst dance ever. and i mean ever. i dance to the wrong beat, i did the wrong actions, i ate movements, i went to the wrong place, everything suck so bad. my mood was downhill all the way it could pierce through earth and continue downhill-ing its way to pluto. [ if you get what i mean.]

yea. so mood was still very bad until 11plus, almost 12. i was so, so afraid, i couldnt afford to screw anything up. the whole dance troupe practiced for months, i cant let my mood drag the whole troupe down. and just at that point, i received a message ;D
baby, thankyou soso much!

yea, so went on stage and danced. was okay. except there's a part i did not go to my place on time and somebody, i dont know who, pushed me from the back, i almost fell. screw you, what if i fell, gold with honours goodbye ok! so stop pushing!!!

yea, but still, 2 girls fell on stage. a couple of them made some blunders.
as much as i hope we get gold with honours, i guess its kinda say goodbye thing already.
yea, very sad. ):

after the dance, some girls broke down.
but whatever, we went back to school. and my mood went downhill again.
i guess you sent that message just to hope that i could still dance is it? ):

removed make-up and cabbed to compass.
ate sakae sushi. i hate moody days, cause thats when i grow fat. i ate soso much ):
together, me and jasmine ate 30 plates or more i think.

yea, and this sucks, my grandaunt decides to visit me today.
cramps hurt like s h i t. popped many panadols and it doesnt seem to work.

nothing is going my way.
screw this world.
god help me.