chinese new year isnt going too well for me.
since friday night until now, nothing went well, nothing.
im not calling my mother 'mimi' or 'mummy' anymore.
no mom should ever say such harsh words to her daughter. no mother at all.

i promised myself, im gonna break my atm card right infront of her face, and her 'prove-me-im-wrong' attitude wont work any magic on me, i tell you.

im moving everything to my room and isolate myself from family.
i dont care, call me childish say im naive, i dont give a shit anymore.
this is enough, im tired of everything going on.

its the worst period of my life as far as i can remember, my family is against me and i dont like one bit of this.
i hardly talk to anybody in the family now. this is bad but this is gonna carry on for god knows how long, and it will stay this way until that woman apologises to me, yes i have faults, but even so, i did not scream my way out of anything alright, i listened and learned. and woman, all you did was scream. did you listen at all? tell me now, since when you ever listened? you said i lied to you? hello, i told you things i never said to germaine or father. and now you said i lied? and then now what? after i told you bout everything, all you do is say "you better behave or i tell daddy everything" oh, so this is what i get in return for telling you so many things? trying to be ur best friend and telling you how my day went, trying to mend our strained relationship from the past, this is what i get?

when dad said he's gonna scold you, i told him not to, i made him promise not to scold you for anything. wow, so now, asking dad not to scold you is also my fault?
and again, since when was anything not my fault?


im tired of all this shit, i feel myself breaking down inside.
i'll appreciate if anybody just ask me how im feeling, i'll tell you.
but nobody does.

thats the point. who really cared anyway?

oh, i start sounding so childish and acting pathetic again, im sorry.
and before all hell breaks loose in the next 2hours, i really have to thank roger and ryan for everything. w/o you guys, i dont know how my night would be.

goodbye.